My daughter Taylor is a good swimmer. This skill is commendable not only because of her special needs, but because she was never formally taught how to swim. When we lived in Connecticut, she took swimming lessons which has vastly improved her skills, but initially she was self taught. Among families of children with autism it is well known that the children have a deep pleasure for the water and remarkable swimming skills. Another reason why this is commendable is because I never learned to swim.
My season as a single mother reminds me of my mediocre swimming skills. My five foot three body tried hard to maintain in 5.7 feet of water. Though the water is not deep enough for me to drown, I am still concentrating every minute to keep my head above water; using my hands and feet to maintain balance and composure, all while maintaining only a moderate level of fear.
My faith outweighs my fear, and when I feel like I am about to drown, that means that I am lacking faith. I must meditate and focus on the goal, while remembering that just as Simon Peter did in the bible, I must keep my eyes on Jesus and trust Him.
If I become too fearful I will drown. I must trust that Jesus will take care of me, stay a float and not panic (Matthew 14:28, 29 NIV). Perhaps Taylor swimming is also impressive because she has no fear. She lacks the ability to understand how dangerous it can be and therefore she goes forth full speed, without fear of drowning. Therefore, I assume that some measurable amount of success is attributed to the the faith that you have when you think that you are drowning. Stay calm, breathe and stay a float.
28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” 29 “Come,” he said.Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” 31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” (Matthew 14:28-31)